You might wonder how blogging is helping me when I have no debt (until I close on the condo and take out a mortgage) and never have and I make really good money for being in my twenties.
I’ve learned over the last few years that I have this need to externalize EVERYTHING. Maybe I’m not introverted like I thought I was and I was just shy and not confident, but I’ve definitely always needed to externalize everything (I just had no good way to do so).
I also over-analyze everything. I spend a ridiculous amount of my free time playing around with my savings, income, and spending projections to see what I can fiddle with and how much more money I will save if my company’s stock price shoots up (since then I get more in cash when my stocks vest every quarter).
Last spring, actually around the time that I started this blog, I also started keeping a small notebook by my bed. I write in this book every night and I’m not allowed to stop writing in it until I stop over-analyzing. If I start over-analyzing something after I put the book away and turn the light out, I turn the light back on and write some more in the book. Some days, I write mostly about feelings, sometimes about the events of the day, sometimes about finances. This book (I don’t like calling it a journal or a diary) has been so amazing to my mental sanity.
I would compare what the notebook on my bedside table has done to my mental sanity to what this blog has done. Sure, I have always been a saver, but I have also always been a terrible spender. Externalizing my thoughts on money is far, far healthier than keeping them all bottled up inside, which is what I was doing before.
So, yes, I am pretty good with money, but I still think about it A LOT, to the point that it’s unhealthy. Remember how some of my goals for 2011 were around financial anxiety? That has gone way down with keeping this blog. I do still check on my checking account every day to make sure that there are no suspicious transactions, but I don’t get anxious about it, nor do I check anything else in an obsessive manner anymore.
Thank you to all of my readers for helping me to develop a healthier relationship with money!! :) You are all awesome. (Don’t worry, I’m not going to stop blogging. This has helped me way too much to do that.) Here’s a call-out to my most faithful commenters:
And thank you to all of the readers who don’t comment, but are still producing visitor statistics that make me believe that other people are reading along :)